cravings

it only took two weeks for the craving to start ...

on the drive home from picking up jake in the afternoon, i'm usually starting to get hungry. regular oatmeal or peanut butter on toast and then a sandwich at lunch only end up going so far. i pass a papa john's (of which L partook last week) and the coffee shop and long for a splurge. i think it's less the specific food and more feeling handcuffed by not being able to eat whatever i want, when i want. it's similar to feeling like a spoiled kid not getting what he or she wants.

for people of means (like everyone reading this i presume), eating is very much a social activity. something to do. shopping is often the same way. "oh saturday is so boring. let's go to the mall or out to eat." spending becomes our activity.

holy saturday is one month from today. wow.